love that the shadow is there.

Once again , my ph alarm woke up everyone in my house and annoyed them .

And see me again , i'm still sleep like non of my business. 

Then , forced to wake up at 10am after my alarm snoozed for an hour.

Went out for breakfast with my family except my brother , another pig in my house.

Is like for the first time on the last day of holiday , i went breakfast with them at Rahang for Fishball mee.

Add some curry from my mum's order laksa. And my sister asked me, why my fishball mee got tiger balm taste. and i guessed is probably cause of the curry. Is like bit sour she said and i guess even my leong cha a bit sour i feel. I don't know. But, i can't finish my food cause of sudden gastric pain . Even take a deep breathe, it also pain . Is like to the heart too. See that , gotta hear advice and concerns that fix my eating time and bring along with sweets always . 

Then , to my cousin house. Need to fetch her to station . Incident that happened , was in cousin house want to go back . Before i out form the house, saw a butterfly was flying around the plant. Okay, that was so not nice to go out there. But however, still need to get out from the house. Without counting 1 to 3, i ran out from the house with the fastest speed and something like people getting out from fire. With my speed, run and jump and hide behind my sis car. After unlock the car, jump into it and lock myself in the car. LOL. Butterfly is just so ZOMBIE to me. 

AFter fetched her to station , went Vis studio for haircut. and yeah , my hair short again like before. 

Yes. i know is boring but is so fresh. :) I just wondering , when only will i stop cutting my fuking hair.

Then , fetch my mum home and out again lunch with Koong Li and Joyce with Karyan too. 

At Chai Fung chicken rice at town. The tasty and expensive chicken rice as always.

Crap for a little not too much . Continue with our dessert , thought of Ais Kacang at 'Lei Sam Luk'  but finished, and then went green house for cendol. 

Then home at 5pm . 

and ... .... ..... lepak ing in house........

8pm going back to Subang. 

And i can't make it again drive back to Subang with Plus highway. 

haven't reach that skill yet and my sis is probably voice disaster beside me.

And halfway stop and change with my sister again . I am sleepy .  LOL.

failed.

And the highway always give me memory of my friend sending me back home last time.

Was teaching him used the highway but the wrong toll to back my house.

we were went until Nilai and U-turn home. I miss that journey. I still feel embarrassing and guilty :)

After been years, I never expected i talked about him again . and i feel i got lots words to say and ask.But there is a but .

And to you who taught me to be tough and don't stuck anymore but i am more like lost in the empty space without light.

It sound so insidious. I am waiting for hint for me to follow . A voice or maybe a light ? 

I am glad and happy with your words . Never know there is person who wish to protect me .Thank you.

It was really touched. But as i said , i really need time to get out from this space or forever i will be here.

i don't know. I see and I know you are caring . <.3